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On Vox: Song of The Week #18 & 19: Twin Cats - I Was Wrong/If This Were a Postcard

2008-07-13T18:31:10Z

I recently played a show with a gentleman named Joseph Murphy who goes by Twin Cats. We exchanged some music and his cd is going to be in immediate and heavy rotation. Here's two songs that go back to back...

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Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging

2008-07-01T15:04:01Z

One of the better personality tests I've taken in a long time, I've done something very similar to this once in a book, it might even be the same test. Having it on line though is convenient.

You should take the Jung Typology Test and let me know what your results are. Especially if we're friends, I'm curious to see how accurate it is to the outside observer. Here's my results.

Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging

ENFJs are the benevolent 'pedagogues' of humanity. They have tremendous charisma by which many are drawn into their nurturant tutelage and/or grand schemes. Many ENFJs have tremendous power to manipulate others with their phenomenal interpersonal skills and unique salesmanship. But it's usually not meant as manipulation -- ENFJs generally believe in their dreams, and see themselves as helpers and enablers, which they usually are.

ENFJs are global learners. They see the big picture. The ENFJs focus is expansive. Some can juggle an amazing number of responsibilities or projects simultaneously. Many ENFJs have tremendous entrepreneurial ability.

ENFJs are, by definition, Js, with whom we associate organization and decisiveness. But they don't resemble the SJs or even the NTJs in organization of the environment nor occasional recalcitrance. ENFJs are organized in the arena of interpersonal affairs. Their offices may or may not be cluttered, but their conclusions (reached through feelings) about people and motives are drawn much more quickly and are more resilient than those of their NFP counterparts.

ENFJs know and appreciate people. Like most NFs, (and Feelers in general), they are apt to neglect themselves and their own needs for the needs of others. They have thinner psychological boundaries than most, and are at risk for being hurt or even abused by less sensitive people. ENFJs often take on more of the burdens of others than they can bear.

TRADEMARK: "The first shall be last"
This refers to the open-door policy of ENFJs. One ENFJ colleague always welcomes me into his office regardless of his own circumstances. If another person comes to the door, he allows them to interrupt our conversation with their need. While discussing that need, the phone rings and he stops to answer it. Others drop in with a 'quick question.' I finally get up, go to my office and use the call waiting feature on the telephone. When he hangs up, I have his undivided attention!

Functional Analysis:

Extraverted Feeling:
Extraverted Feeling rules the ENFJ's psyche. In the sway of this rational function, these folks are predisposed to closure in matters pertaining to people, and especially on behalf of their beloved. As extraverts, their contacts are wide ranging. Face-to-face relationships are intense, personable and warm, though they may be so infrequently achieved that intimate friendships are rare.

Introverted iNtuition
Like their INFJ cousins, ENFJs are blessed through introverted intuition with clarity of perception in the inner, unconscious world. Dominant Feeling prefers to find the silver lining in even the most beggarly perceptions of those in their expanding circle of friends and, of course, in themselves. In less balanced individuals, such mitigation of the unseemly eventually undermines the ENFJ's integrity and frequently their good name. In healthier individuals, deft use of this awareness of the inner needs and desires of others enables this astute type to win friends, influence people, and avoid compromising entanglements.

The dynamic nature of their intuition moves ENFJs from one project to another with the assurance that the next one will be perfect, or much more nearly so than the last. ENFJs are continually looking for newer and better solutions to benefit their extensive family, staff, or organization.

Extraverted Sensing
Sensing is extraverted. ENFJs can manage details, particularly those necessary to implement the prevailing vision. These data have, however, a magical flexible quality. Something to be bought can be had for a song; the same something is invaluable when it's time to sell. (We are not certain, but we suspect that such is the influence of the primary function.) This wavering of sensory perception is made possible by the weaker and less mature status with which the tertiary is endowed.

Introverted Thinking
Introverted Thinking is least apparent and most enigmatic in this type. In fact, it often appears only when summoned by Feeling. At times only in jest, but in earnest if need be, Thinking entertains as logical only those conclusions which support Feeling's values. Other scenarios can be shown invalid or at best significantly inferior. Such "Thinking in the service of Feeling" has the appearance of logic, but somehow it never quite adds up.

Introverted Thinking is frequently the focus of the spiritual quest of ENFJs. David's lengthiest psalm, 119, pays it homage. "Law," "precept," "commandment," "statute:" these essences of inner thinking are the mysteries of Deity for which this great Feeler's soul searched.

Another Day Grinding Away

2008-06-17T19:30:55Z

I remember having the better part of your day planned every day five days a week. It's strange loosing some of that freedom again, I've spent close to 5 years now having an inconsistent and fairly flexible schedule. Now I know that I have to wake up by 7 every morning, to work by 8:30. Lunch at 1:30, and off at 5.

The consistency is nice, but kind of unusual to me. It's strange knowing what I've got on my plate, and working on using my time wisely. It's a new challenge for me learning how to cope and I'm excited about figuring out how to maximize the use of my time.

Life over all is good. There's a few things that are lacking, I'm looking forward to having a place of my own, but I realize that I'm a ways away from that yet. It'll be nice to start hobbies again, I've not been very motivated to pursue the things I enjoy and I imagine that as I get better at managing my time the more interested I'll be in doing those things again.

Growing up continues to be an interesting experience. I'm far from bored with it yet. I've been pretty good about surrounding myself with challenges that keep me questioning what I know. I love it.

I don't rest much, if at all. But being busy is better than feeling unaccomplished. For the first time in years I'm able to afford to pay for the things I need to. I'm doing repairs on my car, that feels really good. I can take Corrine out to nice places, that also feels really good.

The day moves much quicker when I'm working full time like this, this year is going to go super fast. I'm already a little intimidated by the idea of that.

I'm looking forward everything. I feel a little impatient and at the same time I feel like I hardly have enough time. I need to find the balance.

I'm getting there.. it's a good thing. I'm in a good place.

Pushing the Wet Rope

2008-06-16T16:38:40Z

Doing tech support over the phone is such a pain in the ass.
It's like people's brains turn off once they get on the phone with me.
I don't understand how I can manage to tell someone the same exact thing 6 times in a row and still have them do the Opposite of what I said.

"Okay, I'm about to install the SQL instance on your server machine and reconnect your new database. I Need to be connected on the server machine itself, do you have access to the server machine?"

"Well why can't you do that from my computer? Can't you just put it on the Z drive?"

"No I need to be able to attach the database in SQL management studio, I need to be on the sever machine ITSELF"

(repeat 6 times)

"Okay so I need to be on the server?"

"Yes"

Bla bla bla.. gotomypc.com.... and what happens? They remote connect me to a workstation. No Joke.
also worth noting, on friday I told them the only thing they needed to do was make sure that their server was up to date.

So what... I get there this morning, and I have to update them.
- Windows Installer v. 3
- .NET framework 2.0

there was more too... service pack 3 for Office... *shakes head* Maybe I should have been more specific

On Vox: Song of The Week #17: Ludo - The Horror of Our Love

2008-05-05T15:39:38Z

So Ludo fills a niche genre in music that I usually don't listen to. However where bands like Panic at the Disco, My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy, etc have never begged repeat listens... ludo always makes me come back....

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The Sound of Settling...

2008-04-14T14:27:59Z

"Take me out tonight
where there's music and there's people
who are young and alive
driving in your car
I never never want to go home
because I haven't got one anymore"

no really...

2008-04-01T15:21:19Z

...you've been misinformed about a great many things.

Your TV,
Your Schools,
Your Parents,
Your Church.

feeding you fear.
it's really too bad.

Ghost Helicopter

2008-03-27T10:28:47Z

heartstrong

2008-03-26T10:41:46Z

heartstrong
feelings that decay too quickly from underneath you
a day to day resolve decided upon my arrival
shaken by the absence of persistent affections
left reflecting in on your self designed reaction
unpacking thoughts that clutter mind unnecessary
obscuring logic paving ways to a security
here's to hoping for the finding in your disposition
consistency founded in other than my faith sown

feelings that decay too quickly from underneath me
a day to day resolve decided upon your arrival
shaken by the absence of persistent affections
left reflecting in on my self designed reaction
unpacking thoughts that clutter mind unnecessary
obscuring logic paving ways to a security
here's to hoping for the finding in my disposition
consistency founded in other than your faith sown

On Vox: New Ersatz Smile Song: Sky

2008-03-18T07:38:22Z

There was a long timeI wandered alonewaiting for the sunwhile hanging in heaventhe sun waited for meClouds with storms in their eyeswouldn't let me seebut the sky has clearednow my sky has cleared

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The times they are a changin'

2008-03-16T13:23:22Z

01. Waste as little as possible, and want less.
02. Strive to always be pleasant
03. Believe in something bigger than you
04. Appreciate suffering, but not cynicism
05. Love people as they are, no matter what
06. Don't confuse potential for a promise
07. Do something productive, every day.
08. Never loan something you want to get back
09. Remember that the worst case scenario, is never that bad
10. Invest in before you withdraw from, yourself and others.

I've still been reading this list I wrote every day, I'm still working on being better at numbers 7 and 6 they are tough spots for me. I have some big things in the air right now waiting to be resolved and it's going to be another day or two before that lands.

I'm a little nervous about all the opportunities I have on my plate.

I'm also struggling a little with the past a bit, not so much mine as other peoples... but just in general just recently things went really wrong, and in the last 6 months I've watched quite a few close people go through serious personality shifts. I wonder if I did too.

I feel like I stopped changing drastically a good two years ago, everything since then has just been a rounding out of who I am. Even with tragedy and all, nothing has really shook that. I wonder when the next big shift will happen, and if it ever will. Maybe I really have figured myself out.

strange thought... can someone really do that?

Cherish these moments you have
I swear they are the only thing that lasts
the past will always haunt you
and the future will overwhelm
if you let it hold you down
cherish these moments you have
I swear they are the only thing that lasts
break free from this prison society sold you

It's been often said by many people that one of the hardest things to do is take your own advice. I actually think that I'm getting pretty good at it though.

Today is going to be a good day.
I insist.

new song

2008-03-15T19:13:27Z

There was a long time
I wandered alone
waiting for the sun
while hanging in heaven
the sun waited for me
Clouds with storms in their eyes
wouldn't let me see
but the sky has cleared
now my sky has cleared

On Vox: Song of The Week #16: Field Music - You're So Pretty......

2008-02-24T14:07:44Z

When I get home I think about you and your demeanor; You've got grace. I won't shut up, I know that I should, I'd rather stay in the time when I saw a smile on your face. You're so pretty...

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On Vox: END: Transmetropolitan.

2008-02-13T11:22:22Z

I just finished reading Transmetropolitan. It was incredibly awesome, and as I've been discussing it with random people over the past few days I've been getting several recommendations, and I think I've got some more reading lined up. I'm pretty...

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On Vox: 01. Waste as little as possible, and want less.

2008-02-12T11:31:07Z

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Voice Post: Cigarette

2008-02-11T19:34:19Z

On Vox: Song of The Week #15: Softies - Follow Me

2008-02-10T11:28:13Z

Something you said is on my mind I'm the one you thought you'd never find a sudden coastal holiday makes you see me in a different way your voice sounds so hollow I'm glad to have you following me listing...

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Voice Post

2008-02-08T06:19:18Z

On Vox: Mix Tape: "Insha'Allah"

2008-02-05T05:53:56Z

It all started with hearing Wet and Rusting for the first time. The song felt like foreshadowing... slowly I worked (for almost three months) waiting for the rest of the songs to come together over me, all the songs that...

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On Vox: Letters From Strangers....

2008-01-25T09:29:13Z

This seems awfully ironic to me, but I've come to realize something about the fake letters I write. It's true that they are always inspired by some person or another, and often times I feel this urge to say something...

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On Vox: Trying to Work Things Out

2008-01-12T13:35:15Z

Every thing you do results in both negative and positive results in yourself and the people around you. You are responsible for your own actions, and you are responsible for their results. You are not responsible for other people's actions,...

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On Vox: Read Every Day

2008-01-10T07:26:49Z

I made a list, I guess it's nothing new. It's half inspired by the index of a book my friend Steve told my sister about, but honestly I've had the list in my head for a long time.01. Waste as...

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On Vox: Letters From Strangers #10

2008-01-08T12:57:20Z

Dear Adelaide,It is hard for me to know the fullest extent of my love for you. Not because it's unfathomable, but instead because it's complete, and full, and easy for me to comprehend. I'm afraid of my feelings for you...

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On Vox: Interesting...

2008-01-07T19:50:39Z

96% Mike Gravel95% Dennis Kucinich83% Chris Dodd82% John Edwards82% Barack Obama79% Joe Biden78% Hillary Clinton72% Bill Richardson32% Rudy Giuliani30% Ron Paul21% John McCain16% Mike Huckabee16% Tom Tancredo13% Mitt Romney6% Fred Thompson2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz

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On Vox: letters from strangers #9

2008-01-01T22:23:38Z

It might have been equal, unbearable amounts of completely different kinds of ache holding you last night.Because for what seemed like an eternity I thought that this had gone from me completely and yet there I was at the end...

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